Polksa 2017

It's been an extremely eye-opening trip, more than what I've hope to get out of this volunteering programme, and far exceeded my expectations on some parts, yet well I thought I could have done more (eg. spend more time shopping at Zara, Mango, and even visit an outlet store if I could). Ok kid me not, that's just my basic mindless shop-craze self coming to live, after being suppressed while at my stay in the villages.

Thoughts are still stirring in my head, building on top of each other, but at least I know now what I hope to have in the future. Well things that are too personal to be shared on such domain.
For now, just enjoy the pictures that I have now

may life be like this: standing strong like the dandelion even though you know in seconds, you're gonna be terrorized by Iga and her yanking off your seeds and just scattering them in the air,directionless. Well troubles and turmoil bring you to new destinations, so here's a way of looking at Iga's callous seed-dispersing. 

realised I like taking pictures of such style: a window grill foreshadowing the landscape. Snapped a similar picture in Himeji Castle too, lovely.

And whatever happens, just think of the goal you had intended, and it will act as your lighthouse when you are lost in the mist, path uncertain, and just feeling hopeless af. 

Czesch,

Vivienne 

a dew of the sun

The sun. Yes I'm not joking. The sun. The first dew of sun that hits the light. The first beam of ray that surfaces you.

Life, thoughts, they're of no boundaries. The world is your canvas, the world, your olyster.

I should not be holding in thoughts, trying to have a model answer to everything. Nothing is truly permanent, nothing that will stand forever. All these notions, people, personality, perhaps they'll eventually fade in time, with time, and all that remains is the idea that they stand for.

What I aim to retain is the skill, the tool, the acts of trying to delve into these. Stop clinging to fixed notions, and look wide ahead. A different angle might help, tilt your head. And stop managing your perception of people. And just embrace the challenge each time, carving your own road out each time. Stop having the mentality to rely on something permanent, something fixed. Nothing is actually so.

Tata. :)

a new beginning

Hmm. Just comfort as I slouch in my couch on a lazy Sunday afternoon. People are already moving in into the place and I'm still here, slothing my way through (note to self: not the way to maneuver through this new sem pls).
Last sem has been life-changing, given me a taste of how the next few years can be, and how all's just within this grasp to get stuff done. Enriching yes, and an eye-opener, given the many experiences I've had/ heard of. While I wouldnt say its pleasant, it's definite a huge liberation from JC. I hated JC - the school, the nature of the environment, people, and how I felt entrapped in this system, yet I wouldnt exactly say i hate it entirely. I did, through rough times, realize how lucky I was to have these gems in life that I can fall back on (well most of the time it's me whining to them, yes, I am whiny). And though I never felt this particular strong attachment to the class, perhaps the inherent dynamic and personalities there, I do say I did enjoy all the fun stuff that we did together, be it planned or spontaneous. JC was probably a bad shelter, shelter nonetheless.

Entering this sem really got me stepping out of my comfort zone. Trying out new things, taking on a new attitude towards learning, and just challenging myself with stuff that I've never done so. I mean, I've got to really do things that I've never thought of, or bothered to, such as designing posters! How fun is that??

And yup being in a new environment, though I still would prefer comfort. Comfort never truly exists does it? It's more of familiarity, which might not necessarily mean comfort. Predictability, routine, yes, but you'll never know what you can be unless you try it out. And heyy I just got back from my fas writing class, not as bad as I thought it would be! the prof seems like one cool dude, hopefully a fun module, and one i can score.

Anws here's a toast to a sem's worth of writing, reading (yes, loads of readings, read and grasp them fast and sharply) and learning about the world, expanding my horizons in every way (that's one of the reaons why I join usp I guess), and just basically being a more grounded secure individual too. Yaz yaz.

Cheers,
Vivienne